Introducing Dierk

This post is an introduction to a new family member, "Dierk". He is a 8-10 week old puppy I rescued from the local pound. He is a German Shepherd & Collie mix. Maybe this guy will help me deal with things. A buddy that loves unconditionally.

Thinking

I am wide awake and I can't stop thinking about life. My life has went through some major changes, especially loosing my wife of six years. It just makes me question myself. Am I a good guy? Am I really a nice guy? Why won't this pain go away? I think I am doing good and over her, then I see her, out of makeup wearing just her lounge pants and a tshirt and my heart breaks. I see the women I loved all those years. I have cried too many tears how can I have anymore to shed. Maybe I am meant to be single for the rest of my life. I broke up the first relationship since the seperation. I compared her to my wife too many times and it drove her away proving I am not over this. Will I ever be?
This pain is the worst I have felt emotionally. I miss you Amanda.