More furry stuff:
My school ID
More furry stuff:
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 6:07 PM
I have been going through pictures of my "furry" days and I thought I would share.
Tyger Cowboy and me at Anthrocon 2001.
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 11:02 PM
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 5:49 PM
I hung some of my art except 1 piece is not mine the skunk was done by turbine divinity
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 9:57 PM
Most people are getting in the holiday spirits as tomorrow is Thanksgiving. I do find myself thankful for things but this day has truly been a hard one. Right now I find myself outside listening to Tom Waits chain smoking cigarettes one after another. The bitter cold air comforts me. I have had a really rough day. I fount myself looking through old cards and photographs putting them in a box for Grace someday. I wanted to just burn them as a box of lies but fought back the urge, knowing that Grace may someday want to see that her mom and dad was in love at least that her father was. It has been a day filled with tears and filled with anger. C'est La Vie..
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 8:46 PM
Last night I fount myself feeling nostalgic.I visited some friends and later I just drove. The night air felt so good. It brought back old memories driving late into the night and early morning, radio cranked with the offspring. I just drove even bought a black and mild, it really reminded me "hey I'm not a teen in high school but I am still young. That is something I find myself forgetting. I'm still young! I ended up driving through 4 counties not counting Powell.
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 5:45 AM
(X) Skipped school
(X) Watched someone die
(X) Been to Florida
(X) Been lost
(X) Swam in the ocean
(X) Cried yourself to sleep
(X) Played cops and robbers
(X) Recently colored with crayons
(x) Sang Karaoke
(X) Paid for a meal with coins only
(X) Been to the top of the St. Louis Arch
(X) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't.
(X) Made prank phone calls
(X) Been down Bourbon Street in New Orleans
(X) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose & elsewhere
(X) Caught a snowflake on your tongue
(X) Written a letter to Santa Claus
(X) Been kissed under the mistletoe
(X) Watched the sunrise with someone
(X) Blown bubbles
(X) Gone to the movies
(X) Lay down outside at night and admired the stars while listening to the crickets
(X) Seen a falling star and made a wish
(X) Traveled by train
(X) Been to Disney World
(X) Truly believe in the power of prayer
(X) Seen whales in the ocean
(X) Been to a Major League Baseball game
(X) Played in the snow
(X) Lived in more than one state
(X) Watched the sun rise and set in one day from the same location
(X ) Beat a lifelong fear
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 1:13 AM
I sit here at mcdonalds drinking a cup of coffee and find myself looking out the window. Looking out upon the grey skys and damp land.
I feel a strange sense of happiness and an old friend coming back. Creativity,
I always found this time to create a spark of inspiriation. I feel that this time of year brings out my darker artistic side.
I have been listening to tom waits and rufus wainright. May this spark continue.
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 6:41 AM
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 6:54 AM
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 5:54 AM
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 8:33 AM
Still waiting for search and rescue hope i didnt sprain both
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 4:01 PM
Otherwise in ok
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 3:22 PM
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 3:21 PM
Has suffered a sprain ankle on a trail in the gorge waiting for search
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 3:19 PM
I find myself once again awake too early, not that bad, but
still 5 am. Last night we (my parents and myself) moved a few things from the
house on Whitney Court. It felt weird seeing the house empty, minus a few boxes
and things scattered. The divorce really started to hit me last night. Amanda
brought Grace over and she has grown so much in week. Well two weeks roughly.
She is talking more and it is hard seeing her knowing what’s to come. My mother
broke down into tears seeing her. I gave her and dad time alone with Grace
while Amanda and I talked about divorce matters. I hope we can stay civil and
friends through this.
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 10:37 PM
This evening/night has really improved what was a horrible
day. I met up with Jennifer and we went out for coffee (at a little local
coffee shop I didn’t even know about) and a bite to eat. I had such a great
time. The coffee shop put me in mind of places I used to hang out at in
Louisville, tables were painted, haiku poetry on the walls. We talked about work,
life, and all that’s going on. It was really nice to get out and spend time
with a friend. It has been so long since I have hung out with someone other
than my soon to be ex-wife. I miss social interactions with people other than
my family. It was just a great evening. After grabbing a bite to eat at
Tollyho’s (by the way a superho with egg, bacon, and pepper jack rocks!) I left
and stopped at my once home. Most of the stuff was gone or placed where it
would be easy to grab it. It still hurts to be in the house. It is such a weird
feeling. We thought moving there was going to really change our lives for the
better. It changed our lives all right, though this divorce may be what we
really needed. My heart feels like it is for the better. I still care for my
soon to be ex but it just came to a point that it really would just be better
for us to be friends than husband and wife. I still want the best for her; she
was such a part of my life for seven years. Though it was a hard seven years we
still made some great memories that I shall hold onto forever.
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 10:37 PM
October 13,2009 12:35 A.M
I am sitting here at my parents out on their carport on a
swing and reflecting about last week. Yesterday, October 12, I was released
from The Ridge, a mental health hospital. Why was I in a mental health hospital
you may ask, and well I shall tell. I according to the doctor's I suffer from bi-polar type 2. Suicide attempt doesn't help.
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 10:36 PM
Guess ya need my # 859 494 0293
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 7:54 PM
Finally can charge my cel & hopefully will have internet thurs. I am @ my parents house feel free to call or txt
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 7:51 PM
Love. Love at times is so hard. It is very hard feeling love for someone that thinks they don't feel the same way. How is it that love endures through some of the hardest times, yet the emotion can fade away? Does it truly fade? If things end, I know my love may change but it would still be present. Love brings us so much joy yet it can bring you down on your knees praying to God for answers. How can we screw up something our heavenly Father brings together? I think of the famous saying "better to have loved and lost, than to never had loved at all" and honestly the feelings of pain that is felt because of love are so painful, how can one agree with that?
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 8:58 PM
Headed back home. Im on the mnt. Parkway
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 9:25 AM
Entering my old neck of the woods, and I always get a feeling of nostalgia and one of sadness. So many memories and ghosts of past. Thoughts of what was & could have been. I am originally from Campton, KY. I spent many times at Hazel Green.
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 9:34 AM
Headed 2 the hills of east kentucky 4 the weekend 2 visit inlaws will b back sunday
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 9:13 AM
I am outside again just enjoying this glorious day. It is beautiful and cool.. the perfect weather to me. I am listening to the new The Isaacs album "..Naturally" and I truly feel that my soul is at peace for the moment. I feel that my questioning is pointless and that I truly am leaning on the everlasting arms. Father, you are God, Creator, and love. We can not fully understand You with this mortal life. I praise You for the many blessings I see and the blessings that my eyes do not see. You comfort me with the cool breeze and the warm sunshine on my face. I love You Father, Lord, and Savior. Your love encompasses all your creations even the lost sheep that deny you. May we as children and servants to the cross bring them to You. Oh Lord continue to hear your children.
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 11:44 AM
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 6:02 PM
I am sitting on the deck enjoying these cool tempratures before they are gone. Just sitting here watching the sun slowely sink in the western sky, drinking a cup of strong black coffee, listening to sad country songs. I just feel an emptiness and a loneliness that is an old friend and enemy. A deep sinking feeling, the kind of feelings that you think are gone from your life, but have a way to sneak back in. I probably should have gone to church but I wanted to stay home. I think a part of me knew I was going to feel this way and like an animal crawling to be by itself to die, I wanted to be by myself. Why do we try to make ourselves even more depressed when we feel this way? I used to try and drown my feelings with a bottle of bourbon or any other strong whiskey. I gave up drinking, nothing stronger than a cup of coffee, but I almost feel the ghost of a rocks glass on my lips and the feel of a cigarette between my fingers. Satan plays these tricks on us I believe to throw the familiar sins back at us. The sins that still haunt and torment us. He hopes we will give in. I won't give in, I almost ruined my life. Now the sun is gone and the dark, blackness of the night starts to engulf all, except for the lights on my keyboard and monitor.
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 4:40 PM
I am sitting here at Amanda's folks listening to music and typing this. Amanda is taking a much needed nap. Today is her birthday. I hope she has enjoyed most of the day. I feel horrible that I have made her upset today. Today was not a day for any upsetting talk, but I still did. I am sorry.
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 5:16 PM
I am sitting here drinking a vitamin water and reflecting on my life. I just read some of Jen Sward's posts on her blog and it really got me thinking. Tonight I my mind just keeps bouncing from thought to thought. It is strange to think how much can change in a year. Last year, September 3rd I went through one of my most horrible times in my life. It has just been a little over a year that I laid in a bed at St. Joseph Hospital feeling that my life was over. I did as many sinners do as they lay on their death-bed, I repented. I was saved, I accepted Jesus Christ as my savior. I accepted Jesus in my heart on September 17th or 18th and my life began as a Christian. I was baptized on October 26th 2008. Life has changed for me.
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 9:34 PM
This is a poem from some one's past that is published and I probably will get in the dog house for sharing it. The author is very special to me and the poem is not about me so no worries. Just hope I don't get into too much trouble. This poem is copyright to the author. No Reproduction.
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 6:44 AM
The answer my friend.. is blowing in the wind.
One must give credit to Dylan for some of the most poetic and emotional lyrics.
I am just sitting here listening to music on my ipod and this song came on and it really got me thinking. My life is different now, much different. I believe I have walked down many roads, most of them came to a dead end. This new road I walk I feel shall lead me to truth and freedom that we all seek in this life. I walk this road not alone, I walk it with the company of my wife, my daughter following along, and most importantly I am being led by my Savior. I have lost many people I believed were my friends but I know now what friendship really is. I am starting to understand what is important.
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 7:38 PM
Well today we got the keys to the house we are going to rent. Today was the day from the start that we agreed on moving in. We get the keys pay rent and rest of the deposit and the place still wasn't cleaned and repairs needed. They had over two months to clean and do repairs. It makes us so frustrated because we have people from church going to help us move Saturday. This is Memorial Day weekend and people have made plans to help us. It just upsets me so much. Today has been very stressful.
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 6:06 PM
"No where to go, no where to be.." I am just sitting here chilling to Kenny Chesney and I really wish I could be on the beach watching the waves. Amanda and I need a vacation. It would be nice if Amanda and I could get away by ourselves for a little while. Our love for each other is deep and our love for Grace is so strong. Though I wish Amanda and I could get away for some us time. Just her and me playing in the warm sand and cool ocean water just being a young couple. We feel so old at times and we both are in our prime. We have so much stress from time to time that I wished we could get out like we did when we was younger. Hit Tallyho's in the early morning and goof off just being young. To go camping and put a tent up in the rain and make love while the rain drips on our tent and the sound of an owl. I remember her and I going to our first Dave Matthews concert and screaming at the top of our lungs, dancing and singing along. I love being a parent but I do miss those old times.
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 8:52 PM
Yesterday I had a solumedrol infusion. Solumedrol is a steroid. It has made me hyped up which came in handy today as Amanda and I got a lot of stuff packed in boxes getting ready for the big move!
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 5:37 PM