Happy new year! I say good bye to 2010 and hope this new year brings better things. Last year has been tough. Mom had her accident, relationships, divorce, court...Just a bad year!
Friday, December 31, 2010
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Wednesday, September 22, 2010
WARNING EMO. Please tell me I'm not the only person that hates their life sometimes
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 12:15 PM
Monday, September 13, 2010
I am sitting here in a hospital room supporting a friend. My friend Connie is in the hospital due to an infection that has attached to her bones in her face from a sinus infection caused by a form of cancer she has t-cell non-hopkins lymphoma. I am sitting here while she sleeps and her mom also slumbers. Just me with my thoughts. Quite a bit has happened to me recently. I just came out of another relationship due to a situation I am not going to post. This situation has me realizing how gullible I am. I guess that I truly sometimes get so carried away with what I think is love that it ruins my better judgement. So I am back lonely. My divorce becomes finalized the 23rd of September. It brings such mixed emotions. I will be glad when its over but I still miss my former wife. I feel that I am never going to find anyone. I feel that my MS is going to make it hard but most of all I fear that even if I meet a woman that I am going to fail at another relationship. This October 11th would have been our 7 year anniversary. I feel like crying. I feel just that I am destined to be alone. I do have a wonderful daughter and a great little dog but a companion I feel I shall never have. I hate being alone.
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 10:44 PM
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Sometimes I get the feeling I am meant to be single since none of my relationships work out
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 5:11 AM
Saturday, September 4, 2010
I feel so lonely tonight.
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 5:20 PM
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
? l friends. Life is tough but great.
? I can still live. I am dating a wonderful woman and realize life goes on. No matter how tough life gets its still worth living. I have made some wonderfu
? e to blame it just didn't work. I am no longer resentful and accepting of the divorce. I have multiple sclerosis, it keeps me from doing some things but
? rwent a lot in 30 years. I am a father of a wonderful daughter. I was married for 6 years october 11 would have been 7 but my marriage failed. No one els
? I have been suffering insomnia now for a month. Ambien doesn't even help. Only good thing it gives me time to reflect. I soon will be 30 and I have unde
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Well Dierk is no longer with me. I had to find him a new home because he just was growing to big. I was terribly afraid he would knock Grace down. But as soon as I rehomed him I fount a great couple having to get rid of their dog. A 1 year old rough coat Jack Russell. Well to make a long story short I adopted her.
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Tuesday, March 16, 2010
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Friday, February 19, 2010
This post is an introduction to a new family member, "Dierk". He is a 8-10 week old puppy I rescued from the local pound. He is a German Shepherd & Collie mix. Maybe this guy will help me deal with things. A buddy that loves unconditionally.
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 12:20 AM
Thursday, February 18, 2010
I am wide awake and I can't stop thinking about life. My life has went through some major changes, especially loosing my wife of six years. It just makes me question myself. Am I a good guy? Am I really a nice guy? Why won't this pain go away? I think I am doing good and over her, then I see her, out of makeup wearing just her lounge pants and a tshirt and my heart breaks. I see the women I loved all those years. I have cried too many tears how can I have anymore to shed. Maybe I am meant to be single for the rest of my life. I broke up the first relationship since the seperation. I compared her to my wife too many times and it drove her away proving I am not over this. Will I ever be?
This pain is the worst I have felt emotionally. I miss you Amanda.
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 11:51 PM
Saturday, January 23, 2010
I haven't updated in awhile so I'm overdue. Things have been so busy. I am currently in a relationship. I truly feel much happier than I did. I am getting over my soon to be ex wife, I just miss my daughter so much. I do get to see her but it inst the same as when I lived with her. She has grown up so much. I feel that I am truly moving on with my life. This is truly a new beginning for me. A new start, a chance to not make the same mistakes.
Posted by Anthony's Ramblings at 8:08 PM