Insomnia

Laying in bed completely awake. Oh how I hate insomnia. Windy been having a hard time sleeping too. Just one of those nights. So I thought might as well update my blog. Thinking about my life and how much it has changed. I went from feeling alone and thinking I was never going to find anyone to being happily married again and soon will be blessed with a son. After the divorce I felt a failure and then bad relationship after another. Then I met windy and my life feels complete again. I miss grace so much but I get to see her. She still knows me as daddy and it means so much to me. I have gotten to know myself again and realized my faults. I blamed myself for the divorce for such a long time. Windy has really helped me to heal, her and God. I am learning to trust in Him more than ever. I see now how He has always been there. Through the good times and bad. He has helped me overcome a lot of obstacles. I still struggle with MS but I know no matter what it brings He will be there to strengthen me and Windy is there to help too. I see now that Amanda and I wasn't going to make it but she gave me the greatest daughter. That I will always appreciate. She has moved on and I have too. Though I still have the fear of being left alone and hurt, but Windy is helping me to overcome that fear. For once I feel that God brought her into my life to show me love and understanding. She truly has changed my life. Before I met her I felt the old me trying to rise up again. I was trying to find comfort in a bottle. A bottle to ease pain yet it always made it worse. I am so blessed to have her. I feel worthy to be loved, something I hadn't felt in a long time. I can say I am happy. Even though I know we will face tough times but I know we will make it through them. Make it through them with love, understanding, and most important with God.


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Childish People

I can't stand childish people. Tonight my wife got in trouble because someone called in and lied saying I did something I would never do. Claiming to be a customer and when it was people that got in trouble by ruining notes she did to help them and calling her very obscene things which was captured on tape. Instead of firing them they just got warnings. This has left me very angry! I hate when someone lies about me to get someone I care about in trouble!



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Baby on the way

I am going to be the father not only of the greatest daughter but soon of my very own son.



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Happy Fathers Day

Today was a great father's day.
I got to see Grace


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I've come to the conclusion that I hate my life. I have been hurt so many times by women that I fall for. I am so giving up on trying to be happy. Fuck life!!