Judging others???

I am just sitting here while everyone is still asleep. Times like this just gives me time to think and reflect. I at times feel that maybe I do that too much. Life has been tough, which the majority of people may feel the same. I am happy now. I have a wonderful family, that I love dearly. I worship my Savior and God. Yet times like these I feel there is still something missing. My MS took a lot away from me over the years but I still go on. I could care less about what others think of me yet there are times it bothers me. Lately something was said that truly bothered me. There was a person I truly respected but no longer do I respect them. I did everything for them, helped them in anyway even if what I was doing was hard because of my MS symptoms. Even when I would do things that left me the next day pretty much in bed all day due to ms fatigue. I still got up and continued. I was told by someone that the person I once respected said they felt I was disrespected them all because I didn't show up for something at their house and that they also said that if they ran into me and if I said the wrong thing they would bust my mouth. This person is supposedly a devote Christian, yet I feel a comment like that they need to re-read the teachings of our Lord. Yes people judge me all because I have tattoos, my ears are gauged, and recently dyed my hair. Just because I have a different outside appearance than what some people approve of does not mean that the person inside is different or bad. The people that truly know me I was always creative and just express myself in different ways. Does that make me a bad person? The Lord knows my heart and thats whats important!

Sometimes no matter what you do, someone is angry at you. It just leaves you wanting to scream FML!!!!!

Sometimes you ever just look back at your life and think about all the mistakes and roads/paths you took and just wonder where you would have been if you went left instead of right? It is another restless night for me. I sit in the darkness of the night staring at the monitor. The screen being the only light around me other than the amber glow of my lit cigarette. I have dealt with a lot in my life. 32 years have went slowly yet quickly in an instant. I wonder how the hell I have made it this many years. " i've been cursed, I've been crossed, I've been beaten by the ones that get me off"