Sometimes you ever just look back at your life and think about all the mistakes and roads/paths you took and just wonder where you would have been if you went left instead of right? It is another restless night for me. I sit in the darkness of the night staring at the monitor. The screen being the only light around me other than the amber glow of my lit cigarette. I have dealt with a lot in my life. 32 years have went slowly yet quickly in an instant. I wonder how the hell I have made it this many years. " i've been cursed, I've been crossed, I've been beaten by the ones that get me off"