Most people are getting in the holiday spirits as tomorrow is Thanksgiving. I do find myself thankful for things but this day has truly been a hard one. Right now I find myself outside listening to Tom Waits chain smoking cigarettes one after another. The bitter cold air comforts me. I have had a really rough day. I fount myself looking through old cards and photographs putting them in a box for Grace someday. I wanted to just burn them as a box of lies but fought back the urge, knowing that Grace may someday want to see that her mom and dad was in love at least that her father was. It has been a day filled with tears and filled with anger. C'est La Vie..